I'm staring at Rilos sleeping smushed face, & I just feel so blessed that I get my two handsomes for eternity. 

Wiggliest worm.

Yesterday at church I let Rilo lay on the gym floor. He was being the wiggliest of wiggle worms and my arms were feeling like jello, so to the floor he went. It was hilarious. He rolled & rolled & rolled. And kicked the floor, and threw his head back & forth, screamed, etc. It made me smile and laugh, a lot.

Karson got home late last night. It was so happy. I can't even tell you how excited I get sitting on our little couch peeking through the window waiting until a car pulls up. When I see him get out of the car I wait for a couple of seconds & then burst open the front door. I give him the biggest hug & am barely ever ready to let go. My favorite is that we are both smiling ear to ear. 

Sweet rilo sparks has a cold. It is the most awful thing to watch your little one sick. Snot has been coming out of his nose like a faucet. The only upside to him being sick is after he sneezes, he tries to suck his snot off of his lip, acting as though it is incredibly tasty. I assume it's because it's salty, haha!!

Today while I was holding him he sneezed quite a few times and each time he rubbed his cute little nose on my shirt. You could say I had a very snotty shoulder.

Today was good, I love my little family.

mama!

not the last time karson was gone, but the time before i thought to myself,

"i think just maybe this is getting a tiny bit easier."

but then sure enough, the next time he left i felt so sad.

& now this time, i just want him to come home, darn it!

i miss you love. get on a plane.

ps. darling, you scored tonight and it was just wonderful!

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rilo has been waking up around 5am as of late. & its starting to catch up to me.

i am exhausted!! however, i am certain the only reason why i can actually roll out of bed

at that time is because of his loud, happy, squeal he does each morning.

also, i just keep thinking about how much fun it will be with a house full of little ones. 

& to have them all wanting my attention at once. that makes me feel giddy.

i am so excited to hear "mama! mama! mama!" over and over again.

isn't our little rilo sparks such a handsome?? ah!!!!!

the last time i posted was right after he was born.

he is so grown up now. & literally just started crying in his crib.

should i go get him? or just let him cry?

hardest decision ever.

happy friday night!